The Displaced Army Wife

We are coming up on 6 months since Jeff ETS'ed and I thought that I would like civi life by now or at least be adjusted to it, well I was wrong. I still miss it everyday. Some days are worse than other sometimes it's just a twinge of pain remembering my Army life and some days it results in full on meltdown mode.
Jeff seems to be adjusting fine, he misses his buddies and sometimes he even misses his job, but for the most part he's all good. So tell me why is it that he can adjust to civi life better than I can? He was the one who was trained, he was the one who went to war, he was the one who was a Soldier 24/7 and he can just let it go so easy. Is there something I'm missing?
Maybe he can let it go because he remembers how horrible it was to be in Iraq? Don't get me wrong I am thankful beyond words that I don't have to go through another deployment, but that is such a small part of Army life.
The Army really is like a family you go through things with your Army family that nobody else will ever understand. You make bonds with people that last a lifetime, no matter the distance or time you always know that if you need anything they are there for you.
I know that I have been whining and complaining about this in my blogs for what seems like forever, but I have to vent it somewhere right? I just feel lost since Jeff and I aren't going through the same thing. Well here's to hoping that the next 6 months are better than the last.

Another Myspace blog from March 09

Ok so we made it back to Oklahoma unfortunately right now we are stuck at my mom's house for now which is miserable even though we have been here for 48 hrs I'm ready to get out! Jeff has a couple of jobs lined up so we are just waiting to get a call. Something has changed though I am ready to get our new life started, I'm actually looking forward to being able to plan a family vacation and not have to worry about the Army screwing it up. We can spend weekends together as a family at the zoo or just chilling around the house. I know that Jeff will be here for birthdays, anniversaries, and holidays.I had totally forgotten what it felt like to be able to plan our life the way we want it instead of having to plan it around the Army. I am glad to be back with my boys I have missed them so much!!! So I think as soon as we have our own place and this school stuff straightened out our lives will start to fall into place. Wish us luck in our new beginning :0)

This is from my Myspace it was posted March 09
Well less than a week now and the terminal leave date is coming at an alarmingly fast rate. I am so not ready for this. Seems like I am the only one who is sad to see it end which makes it all the more difficult. I just feel like I can't relate anymore. I am trying to be positive about the whole thing, but it's so difficult. Going back to live with my mom oh God please shoot me now! No steady income, no health insurance, and dealing with civilians who have no idea what my life before was like. Every time I think about it I want to bawl like a baby. I won't though because it won't do any good my path has been set regardless of what I think, and it might be better out there in the "real" world but I just don't see how. Well I guess that's all for now because I'm getting all teary eyed thinking about it.